I Will Miss Him Badly...

The thought of him moving away makes me feel so sad... I think I will miss him more this time than before....... I had fallen deeper than before, I didn't know it is even possible to love somebody this much... I feel like we both have grown maturely (not that we weren't but i think we are more committed in giving "us" a chance). I believe we are finally in the same page now - wanting to make this work. He might think I don't appreciate the thing he had done and the things he had sacrifice for me but the truth is I do. The "us" is so fragile and lots of uncertainty is involve. There are lots of questions are running in my mind: would we be able to hang on there for a while? would we make this work out after he moves away? am I included in his plan or that's it for the two of us after he moves? I picture myself moving with him in the future but i am not sure if my presence is wanted.... I can see us being together & the uncerstainty of the matter is killing me... I picture us in so many diffirent ways and I prefer the "the two of us together".... This fragile relationship of us need nourishment and committment...... As clinche as it may be but I think time will tell when we are heading from here.
I Will Miss Him Badly, I love him ever more..........Others would say it is being Masokista but I think not....... at least not anymore...